Bad mother?

I feel that this life is not worth living because after so many efforts and give their life for the people, the family and the whole world, what you get are kicking and hostility from others.
People are false and make good Christmas now but inside they are rotten and full of shit, they are just a jealous and so I want to make life miserable.
They are willing to lie to the other just to get their way.
I really do not know or understand why they do it, because I am a very different person but now after all this time I'm not as it was, I have transformed into a vegetable, not wanting to do anything, like dying .
They say they want to help but it is not true, the only intention behind everything is getting into your bussiness and destroy it slowly until you find the only way out is to take your life because I can not stand more their continuous pressure.
Yes, I am a mother of a child with ADHD.
What do I do?
What crime charge?
Give a life is seen to be a crime.
Yes, it looks a little person who conceive beautiful, loving, charming, handsome and be the best that has happened in my life is my crime.
People are cruel to him and to us that we are his family, all because they do not understand that a person is different.
Since I am the mother of this wonderful child, I am different though I don't have ADHD.
Comprehensive, dedicated, loving ...
Yet the eyes of others was not to mother, I'm a bad mother, not my children well educated.
So if I'm an invalid person, well because my kids and husband love me and my family and friends?
All the people who think ill of my ADHD son and I have no idea what we have to suffer every day, this is a real life shit.
Just wanted to say that for your sake have children with ADHD.
The world would change.
Thanks.